let us see the truth of every moment, and let us see it without contention.

seeing transience in terms of contingency and interconnections...things happen, and as a result, other things happen...suffering being the tension in the mind when it is unable to accommodate the truth of our experiences of impermanence and contingency.

-thoughts drawn from an article by Sylvia Boorstein on OdeWire

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the message coming through so clearly to me lately is this: decide what is wanted, and then have faith enough to let go and allow for manifestation. 

my yoga teacher has been saying it (find the balance between ease and effort), my colleague has been saying it (the hardest thing for people like us is learning how to sit back, relax and receive), an old love interest said it (you've got decide what you want, keri), an even older love interest did, too (you've got to be confident, keri, you're a powerful woman...maybe you just need to stop trying so hard), a random woman in the store said it (you just have to have the confidence that you deserve what you want and then it will come)...

a much harder lesson to internalize than i've ever imagined. finding that balance between effort and ease; taking the ten minutes for Savasana at the end of my yoga practice, body and mind in receptive silence and stillness;  accepting gifts or compliments without an easy and instantaneous, obsequious reaction; remembering that even at moments where movement seems delayed or even stopped, micro-adjustments and shifts are still occurring with great vitality. 

every so often, its necessary for a turtle to outstretch its neck to an uncomfortable and unprotected length; but then it pulls back, closer unto itself and continues its small and slow movements. my neck has been long outstretched; i've seen so many of the possibilities and i realize how many directions there are to go, but the malaise of having my brain stretched so distantly from my heart is making movement difficult. i want to relax my neck, tuck my chin a bit, cross my hands around my hips, and take root in the ground. integrate. 

my intentions flow through me, into the ground, out into the sky...now, slow and still. peaceful receptiveness. faith. it will come...