thank god it's friday. except that tomorrow i actually have to be awake hours before i even open my eyes on any weekday. but it's so worth it.

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we're making baked meringues this weekend. and wrapping a cake in white chocolate modeling clay. and making rugelach. and baking some sort of complicated bread, i imagine. holy moses! i love baking.

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sunday is halloween. and i don't have a costume. no need, really. turns out i'm not doing a damn thing to celebrate the holiday which always seems to happen. whatEVAH. i figure this weekend will be replete with cooking and baking and hiking and figuring out what bills are past due.

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i sometimes wonder if i'll ever have more than fleeting connections with people. it seems that everyone and everything i grow to care about inevitably flies away. i used to be able to handle that and justify it, but dammit. i am getting tired of this. perhaps i should rethink this free electron stuff. maybe it's better to be more stable and accepting rather than instable and offering. as if i can make that decision. i cannot. i'm a freaking aquarius. and i should revel. should.