sometimes i get tired of being a catalyst. and i just want the reactants to be products without me having to expend so much of me...my heart, my time...to get them there. i want to experience the results of a significant reaction of human will and spirit...i want to meet he who has put in the time and effort, who has asked the questions and searched for the answers, who has struggled and failed and prevailed...he who knows how delicate and tenuous this all is...and how very deeply it should be cherished and honored at all times. it's time now...it's time. i am ready. where are you?