my vessel - a conduit, my thoughts - enzymes...richly alchemizing that which flows into me...wishing in futility to hold onto some of that which is always metamorphosing to ease the loneliness...perhaps, instead, i will begin advertising shared work space in my laboratory of the soul...for a companion alchemist to work by my side independently, sharing reactants and heat sources and distillation glassware...creating, together, in solidarity...