a quick post and then much much more to come later...but i made it to hoopa! the drive up here on I-5 then west on 299 and north on 96 was breathtakingly gorgeous. through the miles, with sights of whiskeytown national recreation area, the trinity river, trees and mountains, and the sounds of 'the old crow medicine show' and 'the devil makes three' coming thru my ipod and over my scratchy car radio, i was overcome with emotion a few times.

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i am still processing being here...feeling how truly free i am in life right now. no job, no significant other (although many significant friends!), no set plan, per say, but lots of passion and willingness and energy...it's equally scary and thrilling. but i know this point is right where i need to be. in years past, i've fought against all committments, be them personal or professional, and although that has definitely caused troubles for my heart and head, i am truly glad for the place i'm in right now...

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we woke at 6:15 a.m. today, started working at 7:00 a.m., and finished working at 7:00 pm...with a lunch break in there. we weeded the beet beds, hoed the herb area, thinned the asian pear trees and planted hundreds of lettuce starts...and tomorrow we harvest for the saturday market! there are six of us on the farm now, with more visiting and coming to volunteer throughout the summer. i'm still totally becoming acclimated to and getting comfortable with this environment and these folks...but i am loving it.

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on the drive up here, thoughts about some hard things that happened in the past year started catching up to me, and with so much time to think, i know i'll be dealing with quite a bit...but it needs to happen..and i cannot wait to see where the newfound weightlessness of understanding and acceptance will take me...

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grady and nathan brewed their own asian pear hard cider last fall and i'm going to go see if i can get a taste! oh, so much to TELL..but i have to share the computer. more later, i promise.